5.03 awful flower! the hurt! & the wound!
Leia Penina Wilson
outside the garden
inside the garden there is
only the certainty
death
& promise
—all is red marigold on fire
—all will be well i tried to tell you.
the rules to this game haven’t been very clear.
we carry on. we carry on. today
the return/ of failure: a wild animal
answers another wild animal’s mating
i like everything cold
i look for the burial place of death who
does that
the dermis of my own
my own burial place of death
some
some entire live
cycle feeds another saturn
swallowing hades hera we eat
the fig, sweet
achievement
inverted
today i invent feelings: would that i might
shelter you
cunting into the old skin of
the death adder i coil!
o glory! giant grasshopper nymph! she was right/ resentment can’t be parted
gently
voice mediator/ corpse manipulator/ poet—
that part in the movie where we realize we’re in the movie & we die
now you know
nothing will be soft
anymore
—theseus & the minotaur
—theseus killing the minotaur
—apollo & the nymphs
—apollo & daphne
in a crackling voice everyone asks something i don’t especially trust
& do you remember a poem
i am nearer
it’s important to remember to remember to remember to remember
&
………hmmmm………
the state has a monopoly on the use of force
& they cement the dead seal the deal
& 73, 639 deaths from covid-19 in the us
& greener than grass i am and dead—or almost i seem to me
if i lay here will i petrify i let
the text autofill
& it learns i don’t even know myself
ouch screen SMOKE SCREEN! ant
S M O K E S C R E E N ! ant
SMOKE SCREEN! ant
pitiless sibyl! ever victorious rival! our!
terrible! love!
resistance & residue: i thought
everlastingness
bad angel! our! broken! love!
ruin & redemption: architecture of
apocalypsebaby we anticipate
fear, language, fantasy violence
your daily altar/ of eros
i don’t need
an audience to be alone
—yet
i perform/ my live/ threadbare
i perfume/ my life/ threadbare
& send messages through the mouths
of corpses mine, too
what
do you know
about love anyway
pleasure is/ its own
motivation we were villains &
i need.